Have you ever expressed yourself in a way you regret? Perhaps you have carried shame for being honest, as if that honesty was negative by nature, as if silence would have been more in alignment with your truth?
A few days ago, speaking my feelings out loud did not bring me joy, and I've carried an energy of disappointment within. I am not disappointed in the presence of my feelings, for honestly, I cannot deny what is, but did those feelings need expression? This is what I am questioning.
My Highest tells me they did not. My Highest tells me that I confused allowance of what is with expression of what is. My Highest wishes for me to realise that the lack of joy I felt following that expression was an indication of how out of alignment I was.
But it also wishes to reassure me that these circumstances have unfolded as a lesson, a gift, an opportunity to remember that I don’t need to outwardly voice my feelings in order to allow them within, and that voicing feelings prior to honouring them deeply within often leads to expression not of Loving allowance, but of judgement, criticism, superiority, fear.
These lessons are not easy to learn, and we can't learn them if we shame ourselves within, for shame acts as a block disabling the wisdom within the shamed energy. I wish not to encourage that, so I welcome my disappointment into my heart space, showering it gently with awareness. I thank it for alerting me to an action that didn’t feel aligned with my truth.
By reaping this wisdom, I feel my Lower Self being allowed freedom to be, being allowed fault, being hugged by my Highest, being told it’s OK to make mistakes for those mistakes are how we learn who we ARE:
Deeply, I am not judgemental or criticising; I am the Brilliance of Love welcoming equally the all.
So next time, prior to voicing the honesty of my feelings, I will check-in because that honesty might not belong to my Highest; it might merely be a passing cloud that didn’t need vocalising, just allowance within to simply be.
I trust that any expression following genuine allowance within will be necessary in any now, and actually, yesterday, with a new friend, I honoured that necessity of expression, and joy accompanied that truth.
With Love
Kirsty
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