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Have you ever heard these words? Yeah, so have our deepest knowings.
The mind feels an enormity of fear when our deepest knowings are challenged. As if there's an emergency, it looks for the nearest exit and tries to usher our knowings off the scene so that it can take control.
I had an experience last night where my mind tried to overrule my heart. It tried to play a game it has played many times before, whereby it overrules my truth in order to play by the rules of our conditioning.
But it’s becoming increasingly difficult for me to usher out my truth as if it is not valid. More and more, I am finding that I am able to gently guide my mind, not to any exit, just to a safety zone of allowance.
Last night, I allowed my fear to be whilst holding on to the truth at my core. I responded from this place of empowerment when once I would have reacted from a prison of shame. Instead of apologising for what had been perceived as a weakness, I was gifted a Brilliance of awareness of a strength unrecognised until now. Allow me to explain:
Following deep conversations, I received a beautiful Wisdom for one of my most valued friends. Prior to sharing it with her, I gave her the opportunity to tune-in so that she could be sure she wanted to receive it at this time. I also made it very clear that my Lower Self was not responsible for this Brilliance, and I reminded her that, at all times, the authority of her truth rests within. Perhaps I over-emphasized this point because she reflected back to me how much I always “justify” — although I see it more as relinquishing authority — prior to delivering Wisdom I am gifted to share, and that it is unnecessary.
I have had these experiences throughout my life, whereby my natural responses are denied by others to the point that I feel hesitant to communicate naturally in some circumstances. I noticed that my mind immediately wanted to usher out my instincts. It was fearful that shameful insecurities were prompting these so-called justifications, and it was fearful that I was being perceived as tiresome in the eyes of another. I felt the rising of a familiar feeling of not having my shit together in a way that society perceives as strength. In other words, I was not confident or self-assured or in control of my gift.
I began to react from this feeling of shame, suggesting that I did indeed have insecurities to overcome, but as these words started to arrive from my mind, I felt a disconnect between what I was saying and what I was feeling. I wasn’t, I realised, speaking my truth; I was, instead, shaming it into submission.
My precious friend, without realising it, had triggered within me a Brilliance of realisation, for upon observing the workings of my inner world, noticing that I had been deeply triggered in a way that was out-of-proportion to her message, I realised that something vital was occurring. There was a Higher experience unravelling, and indeed, I experienced a breakthrough of awareness that was accompanied by a very powerful message that clearly wishes to be heard.
I’m going to share it now not to promote my Wisdom, for that is beyond promotion; rather, I am sharing it as a voice of my Divine Feminine within — a voice within the all that has not been honoured with the equality of respect it deserves. I’ll speak more about that below, but here to set the scene for the Wisdom that follows is what I received from my Highest in relation to me instinctively feeling called to offer any Brilliance I receive with a level of hesitancy:
We have been criminalising these aspects of our Divine Feminine, treating these vital voices of our truth as “lesser thans”, shaming their presence as if they are not the Brilliance of Wisdom. No feeling is a lie. The lie is the mind deciding in any now which feelings are appropriate or not.
By “justifying” the Wisdom arriving through you for another, you are reminding your Lower Self of its place. Imagine if you were to allow your Lower Self to take responsibility for the Wisdom. What an inflated ego you would promote!
You have been gifted clear boundaries of realisation for the very purpose of remaining respectful at all times. We would not shine our Brilliance intensely through you were these boundaries not in place as a safety net to prevent our Wisdom being used inappropriately.
Whilst you are welcome to tone down your vocal intention to honour the other, to tone it down to zero would be detrimental to reception of further Wisdom.
Thank you.
WOW! I feel WOW within. I feel like I am viewing our "weaknesses" in a new light. Whilst society has conditioned us to dishonour our expressions of weakness, truly those weaknesses are strengths beyond our comprehension.
We need to offer the voices of our Divine Feminine the same freedom we offer their opposite. We need to promote equality in our world, and that starts in our world within. How can we ever expect our external environment to reflect equality of the all if we cannot offer equality to the voices of our own truth within.
This feels to me like a turning point and my dear friend played a vital role in helping me reach it. I feel only gratitude towards her for presenting so clearly a mirror of a falsehood still imprisoning my Brilliance within. Next time, I might offer that reflection to her.
We are all assisting one another in this way, so before you label those who trigger you deeply as villains, connect to the voice of your Divine Feminine for she Brilliantly knows the truth.
Thank you.
With Love
Kirsty
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