Do we always need to feel certain of our truth? Do we always need to have absolute belief that we are held by Love at all times? Will that hold loosen its grip if we dampen our trust? Will we somehow fall through without strength of conviction in who we are?
Before we have fully realised our truth, these questions can flow through us, for we are forgetful that we are the Love that holds us at all times.
There have been times recently when I have failed to have fullness of faith in my truth. But another trust rises in me now during these moments of doubt. It’s a trust in the okayness of my undulating faith; it’s a trust in the okayness of my humanness.
I realise that the more I bloom into a Being of Love, the more I am okay with all the expressions that blooming offers me.
On a walk a few days ago, I witnessed roses in various stages of bloom, and I witnessed their form as separate from their beauty.
Instead of stopping only to breathe in the beauty of those perfectly full blooms, I found myself thanking those blooms that were beginning to die. I found myself holding them with awe in my heart as I realised their beauty was beyond what my mind was conditioned to see.
Sometimes, my beauty is obvious in human expression, but other times it has not the perfection of a rose in full bloom. Sometimes, I am wilting, covered in aphids, and my petals are brown following the rain, and sometimes I am closed, nothing but a green bud; I don’t appear to bloom at all.
But I no longer mistake my truth for one rose on an entire plant. I am ALL those roses, ALL those expressions that come and go repeatedly in my journey of being. The beauty of my Brilliance is beyond the form of any one expression; it is the fullness of ALL that I am.
And so now, even in times of doubt, even in faltering moments of faith, I rest in this Wisdom that immediately delivers me Home.
With Love Kirsty
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